justin hadad

sevilla

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Sevilla, Spain

I can do no better than to describe an individual moment in Sevilla. I had arrived maximally lost: this was my first time living abroad not on a friend’s couch; I still could hardly communicate in Spanish, despite my efforts; and I had literally no idea what I was doing here. Surely I’ll explore, surely I’ll have fun; but just as much it’s unclear: what am I doing here?

I arrived at the hostel, did the greetings, and asked the volunteer for a lunch rec. She was excited by my ostensive excitement, and suggested I try the restaurant around the corner. Bodega Santa Cruz, forever incarnated in my feast-y dreams, dreamy feasts.

The waiter placed me outdoors and left me a menu. I decided to stall my roughly all-mental anxiety by half-assedly describing in my journal the physical things in front of me: a couple popping champagne at an outdoor restaurant, a busker, the sunlight. As I wrote the waiter came back to my seat and said just two words: “Hungry, hungry!” I smiled, said “Hungry, hungry!” and rubbed my stomach; then he rubbed his own in turn, then we laughed and rubbed our stomachs and chanted “Hungry, hungry!” together. He asked if it was my first day, I said si, and he took the menu. “I bring you favorites,” he said.

As he walked away, I asked for water. He said no. “Beer, beer!” It was 10am, nonetheless I consented, nonetheless I ended up having three.

The first tapa, the mesmerizing dish alive in my memory forever, was tender pork cheek on cabbaged vegetables. I am so much aware that an accurate account of my response to this plate (and to the rest of the meal) is impossible, that I will spare the details. I should instead present what the food made me write. Transcribe if you so wish.

Writing about Sevilla. Apologies for the handwriting.

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